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I quit, I'm back. What makes a runner?

Thought I hit the threshold on running. I was simply tired. Running became more of a struggle than enjoyment. I was slipping...from 9 minute miles, to 10, then 12. I was ashamed.

I was running in my hometown in Wisconsin. A friend drove by in his truck and yelled "If that's all the faster you can go, better head straight to the hospital!" Maybe funny to him, but that narrative broke my psychological bank. I was done.

So, six months progressed. I became a walker. Still OK, did 4-6 miles a day and did Total Gym. Also cycling on the weekends, many times 50+ miles.

But, I was empty inside. I realized running drove everything else. My identity, my motivation to eat well, my desire to set goals.

I am a runner in my mind. So now, I am back.

Currently traveling in Greece. Went out for a shuffle in Santorini, 30 minutes out and back. Mostly down on the way up, climbing on the way back. One hour and 12.5 minutes a mile.

Sure it's not a stellar race pace. But I am 60 years old. And I am a runner.

Who ever you are, what ever place you are at, you can be in the club. Set the vision in your own mind. Don't let others manipulate how you arrange your thoughts.

Come join me. I would like you to be on the journey. Everyone is welcome, none are left behind.


  1. I'm glad you got your spirit of running back into your life. Remember: One foot in front of the other.
    Wether you are a 9 minute mile or a 15 minute mile; just keep moving forward.
    I'm 52 and I'm going to attempt my first ever 100k next year. I've begun training and by the grace of God I hope to sign up for this particular run next September.
    I'm not worried about how fast I can run, I just want to start and finish!

    Good journey my friend

    1. Nice one Frado. Like you im 52, slow runner but have finished 2 ultra 50k. Am planning to run my first 100k next year...

  2. Just saw your video on youtube. Thanks for sharing. Led me to this blog. I had my 2nd DNF in 32 races 3 days ago in my 3rd ultra. Mentally gave up at the 26k. Questioned why i was runnig at all. I quit that day but i just ran again today...

    1. I have learned to adapt to changes in ability to run. Was into a good 4 weeks of nice jogging every day, then had more problems, turned back to a walker again. Ups and downs.


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